Recovery is slow, it drags you back by paying attention to minutae - you think you're getting better but its mm by mm, still at least i'm talking to myself on the net. which is more than I could 2 weeks ago.
I'm not really sure I want to continue a website, not sure there is much point, but when I thought that I suddenly had an urge to put things on here - but it could be temporary- I have the site til 30/01/20 its a target, to make a decision. Theres always instagram- the big bucket, monitored, to throw pictures into, to think in 3's.
going through my scans I realised how many images I had that I had never shared, and what happens to all these images after? Don't think my son is interested in them.
coming soon, super excited to be part of Instant art Paris again this year, though I won't be going, at least I got there last year. Big thanks to stefan aka Herr Merzi. Also happy that some friends and relatives will be able to attend on my behalf.
2019 was blitzed by the cancer colonising my brain - it feels like it was totally blitzed but there was some good and exciting things happening before I got struck sideways at the end of June. It was hard because this time it wasn't about choices, well lets face it with cancer the choices are pretty fucked whichever way you turn. It started with an epileptic fit and finished with 12 hours of gamma radiation after a full surgical removal. it felt like a violation. Its my brain so I guess it would. And then? well i'm still in shock, waiting for the radiation to do its worst on the tumors affecting mobility eyes and balance. Its coming back slowly but focusing a frame is a bit of a bitch.
on the other hand I had some wonderful opportunities this year - a very pleasant convergence of opportunities to show some work in some exhibitions around Europe.
I was so pleased to be in this, the exhibition also continued to several locations after it finished in Barcelona.
Then there was another exhibition with expolaroid, in Romania, with the title 'entre Chien et loup'
then there was Arles but by that time the shit had hit the fan, on the day and time I was meant to be flying to Marseille I ended up being put under anaesthetic and having a 3.5cm tumour surgically removed from my brain - I suppose its a different sort of travel. I was very sad to have missed that opportunity, though it was great to be on the poster and catalogue cover.
very pleased to have 3 images included in the blank wall gallery from Jan 4 - Jan 16. I'll be there on the 4th in the evening.
very excited to be involved in this exhibition to raise funds for gun violence - all sale proceeds went to SOS but the exhibition continues til December 23.
Paris was fantastic - a wonderful trip down memory lane and a stunning exhibition curated by Stefan Merz. The opening night had loads of people, it was teaming. I can't really explain how good it felt to be there, especially with whats going on with me at the moment. I had the opportunity to reconnect with some friends i'd met working with MSF. we had a great evening the first night, lots of talk and a wonderful local bistro. again on the opening night after seeing the show with other friends a wine bar, tapas and more good conversation and a beautiful night walk back to my apartment, courtesy of Jamila and Ovidiu.
Best of all was getting to meet some of the great polaroiders in the exhibition - although I would have liked to have met and spoken with more I was a bit overwhelmed by the amount of people and I think living on an island, albeit a beautiful one, for so many years has eaten away at my social skills, maybe I never had them to begin with. So a big thanks to Stefan for inviting me, and to Ariel for breaking through my shyness, Carmen for showing me something new and to everyone I did have the chance to speak to however briefly.
'The perfect incense for the worship of angels
whose flame left no ash'
i took these in 2009, they were taken with a holga on B setting. never could decide which one i like the most. 2 of them are on flickr. the last one i did in 10 or 11 but its from a different set of images.